Hey Vince, I work with computer programming, and I know how hard it is when you are almost done with something, but that something refuses to actually be done. It always seems like you are almost finished and the tension seems like it is going to drive you mad.
I know this isn't worth much, and in the end, you have more experience with this kind of thing than me (going by the number of rpgs you have published), but me and your other fans are here cheering for you. Sorry if this post sounds silly, but you look like you could use a good pat on your shoulders.
My head aches, my back aches. I have 6 bookmarks left sticking out the top of my editing copy, shit like "rewrite this example to include the new harm move." People are coming over any minute, expecting me to run this bastard game, which thought I can barely face.
6 bookmarks left. Three hours' work, maybe less, if I were fresh and energetic. It seems undoable.
All of this angel on the shoulder stuff is feeling... unbalanced.
Just quit, Vincent. You know you want to. All that typing, and editing, and balancing, and editing, and typing. It could aaaaaaaalll go away. Just throw away the physical copies. Just shift-delete the digital copies. Just shut down the website. All of the little baby birds, chirping, and chirping, and chirping, hungry for regurgitation. Go ahead. This could all be over.
It was! The game turned out good, I'm glad we played.
So. Here I am, 5 days late, but it's a rainy Saturday and I'm not doing anything else until I'm done. I have 5 bookmarks left I have to clear, 5 pieces that need rewriting and then I'm done with the writing and done with the laying out, down to a final proofread and indexing. Got my tea, got my music, closed the study door. Hitting submit and then getting off the internet. Ready? Set? Go!