thread: 2005-05-16 : Violence
On 2005-05-17, Christopher Kubasik wrote:
Hi Vincent,
You're not alone in questioning it. And I take a lot of flack for it these days. I'm still not sure about using those metaphors, honestly.
The problem is, in my own personal experience, when I was a good over-educated would-be androgony, helping to make the world better by assuming there was no such thing as masculine and feminine, I was miserable.
Now I'm having fun thinking "masculine" all the time! And it doesn't feel like a "constraint" at all. Absolutely freeing.
I'm sure it's a mental placebo of sorts... But at what point does something that affects our *thinking* that produces positive results ever get past the point of being a mental placebo? I mean, its a metaphor, in my head, that colors my actions and produces good results. But clearly its not real.
I don't think any less of men or women for it. I just like saying, "I'm a man, with a man's body. What's that all about?"
It's fun.
Many people don't see it as such. In general, the response seems to be I want to put half starved women in cages and take away any rights for them that have been won for them over the last 100 years.
Not true at all. And as dull as assuming that when I talk about masculinity I'm talking about a dullard football jock.
But... It seems best as my personal game. I'm speaking of it less and less these days. And all I know is, outside of telling people, people watcing the change in my *behavior* because of the change in how I'm thinking, are happy for me, excited at my ability to get things done, move toward my goals. And women are dealing with me in a completely new way.
So. In the end... I have no idea...
But I gotta get back to work. It's been a nice half day off after a 14 hour day of writing yesterday... But this is getting crazy!
See y'all.
Christopher
