thread: 2007-02-26 : Exorcism followthrough
On 2007-03-05, Curly wrote:
I only recall taking K once, but I've knowingly been in the company of users a handful of times.
I tend to take the least-polite-amount of any drug offered... often none. So YMMV.
But, for me, the first effect was hearing music as pulsating like a strobe light. I navigated point-to-point around a crowded, confusing club. (Walk to the pillar. Stop. Focus on the barstool. Go. Stop. Focus on the DJ booth. Go. Stop...)
This was more of a game, than a necessity. I laughed at myself. I reached a dark bar room, unused that night; with photos of drag queens on the walls. I basked viserally in the sudden quiet, dark, aloneness, and calm. I looked at the photos, and was surprised to recognize a friend—holding a huge trophy—back when he was younger and more convincing as a girl.
At that moment, I realized I was utterly sober; having
1. experienced no unpleasant 'crash' at the end (or the next day)
And
2. I think no more than 20 minutes had elapsed since snorting the stuff.
Both of those aspects were good news.
Some of the above could be described in 'disassociative' terms, but I doubt that terminology would have occurred to me—had I not heard other people describe it that way.
Locating my friends sitting in a booth, one had his head back—like he'd fallen asleep at the movies. I was concerned, so I borrowed a bottle of nail polish and waved it under his nose. The stink woke him up. He was mad at me for interrupting his snooze. He said that the -point- of Ketamine was to do enough to get into a K-hole. I suspect that's not a majority viewpoint. I suspect he snorted a big pile of the stuff, compared to my tiny whiff. Also, he was drinking heavily.
I guess my point is that there's nothing especially-scary about Ketamine. It's discussed in scary-sounding terms. But both my friend & I could have had a similar experience via champagne + exhaustion. The noteworthy aspects of the drug tend to be positive ones. The negative aspects are common to many drugs, not specific to K.
The disassociative/free-will thing is in the eye of the beholder. If you don't feel safe, then that effect will be scary. If you feel safe, then it's just a short, interesting ride.
In theory, the point of Prozac and of talk-therapy is to get you to step aside from your emotions/ego a bit, and refect on yourself from a slight distance. Does K do the same thing? I don't know.
